Well, yeah I'm back...sorta --;
Been going to college, studying and hanging out with my new partner Barbara.
Planning to get my comic on the road too, website and everything...
But I have this gut feeling....
A really painful one too....like someone I grew to hate is planing something, but I'm just probably over reacting a bit.
It's not like it's gonna work out. :/
But yeah, still stress over issues, new and old.
I don't even know why it's effecting me so much...maybe it's the rain reminding me of...her.
blah to hell with her, I'm better off away from that cheater and that bastard, not to mention that lier.
I'm just gonna focus on more important things....say like....beating the crap out of her in her own game. -,-

SO apparently , DA has viruses....alot of them --;
and when I was using my sister's laptop , her files crashed. DOn't worry we had nothing important...this time :/
SO yeah, I"m not gonna be on DA due to the fact this palce sucks balls and is a computer killer site.

SO ...I don't know when I get enough money for virus protection. Maybe, until then lata.

you guys know where to find me anyway
but hey, I'm moving to SA :3

I heard they need good artist, and well no one knows me there >>
SO TATA XD

Sooooo *coughs*...

I can't believed it worked. >,>
everything went according to plan...except for the last part where I kinda broke down and felt guilty..and told some feelings that wasn't SUPPOSE TO COME OUT. ><;
yes people, I am a soft hearted idiot --;;;
So ...yeah...I somewhat made Olivia retired after the ...well the "picture" incident. Or she just probably made another account 9_9. meh, not gonna bother with it -,=

Oh well she was gonna quit anyway in December, the stupid bitch. --;
And yes I've been bewitched by her how many times , I know you're tired of hearing of it.

but yes I have been enjoying my time away :3
My grades are up, I'm walking around town more, and well I haven't been thinking of it much.
So yeah, pretty much I've still be trying to get my art done >>
and working on Animation and stuff.
Although my reputation is at the bottom, but then that doesn't mean I can climb my way back to the top, or at least where I was.

But in the end. Yes I am happy to see her art gone....well some of it. --;
I was suspecting her to be angry at me, not tell me I was or still in her heart. and oh god....if she ever....ever comes down here....just to return my jacket.....I'm gonna straggle her with it. -,=

Because seriously, yes I am bury my true feelings away and being a jerk. But it's for the best reasons for myself. Sooooo....yeah 9,9

*pulls out a pepsi and a erotic manga* I'll get back to you guys on the art stuff, and I'm here to stay.

I KNEW IT!
She's nothing more but a coward!
She's afraid of me, and yet she loved me before!
SHE NEVER LOVED ME!
She isn't disappointed.....SHE'S NOTHING BUT A COWARD!
I AM BETTER
I AM STRONGER
I AM SMARTER
and I left my fucking feels for her get in my way!
I'm disappointed!
If I can't be the love she loves,I WILL BE TEH ONE SHE FEARS THE MOST!
I will be her nightmare!
This is all her fault!
Not mine! I never wanted this! She let this fear inside me grow!
I hate myself for even caring!
I regret everything I did for her!
and for what! NOTHING!

I feel hurt...I feel like bursting into tears!
BUT I RATHER COVER IT WITH RAGE THEN TO BE SEE AS A WEAKLING LIKE HER!
I ....AM......BETTER!!

I don't need her! Those memories are the only things that hurt me!
So let my word be done, and I will continue to prove her and teh world of what I can do!
and may god, keep my love for her ...buried in my chest! WHERE IT BELONGS AND NEVER COME OUT AGAIN!

well...I did it.....

I got my account banned on FA....but they didn't delete it....or not yet...

anyway I see that she closed that account too....feeling numb I guess....

I....I did something....I killed a part of her that was deep inside...

I gave her a reason to let go....so why does she keep lieing to me...
I knew she did those things....
I hated her....I hulmilated her...I pushed so far , that there is no going back....
All I ever wanted out of that whore was to be honest!
All I ever wanted was for me to be wrong!
I'm right, and I keep proving it, and proving it....
all she does is the wrong thing!
I warned her! I WARNED HER! But does she listen NO!
she let this happened....she could have changed it, but she didn't care, she let this happen....

all I see now is my account frozen, and I wanted it deleted!
It was too painful to look at it! I wanted to be at the bottom...and yet I'm still hovering over it!
Damn it why!....

all she could have done...was say sorry...or talk to me...

I don't need to go to her! I wanted her to come to me! But she never came!
SHE NEVER CAME! SHE WILL NEVER COME! AND I WILL KEEP BURNING EVERYTHING BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT I MUST DO TO MOVE ON!

.....She's a heartless bitch....and I'm an animal....

face facts world....that's what we are